exactly the same

Damn I swear that guy in tuition looks exactly the same as him. Shan said that it could probably be his brother. HAHAHA that's not possible at all since he only have an older brother. Well the more I look at that guy, the more resemblance I see. Oh my god why why why :-( it's like their skin colour, size , eyes etc looks exactly the same. He even have a dimple on the left side of his cheek . WHAT IN THE WORLD. Apart from the guy in tuition having a piercing and his height, I guess they're basically 99.99% alike. ( over exaggerating but oh well ) But at least it doesn't really bothers me anymore, like at least I don't think about him as often. BUTTTTTTT, it's definitely distracting me cause to be very honest, he's not that bad looking either. ARGH, I need to freaking maintain. Yes, maintain Nicole, maintain. It's not like I would be interested in him or anything. I hope not. I guess it's just pure coincidence that they look alike. Yes, I shouldn't be thinking about it .

changed for the worst

Not only me, but practically most of the people I asked in school thinks that you have changed. Not for the better of course, it's for the worst. I don't get what you're thinking, really. It's not like you're very pretty or anything. Stop striking poses that looks more like a slut or looks more like you're trying to get attention. It's disgusting. The more pictures you post, the more disgusted and irritated I get. ( as well as her. ) You're just destroying your whole outlook by posting those pictures on instagram for your information. I'm not saying that your personality is any better. I mean when you're with us , maybe it's still okay. But when we're out together and there's guys, you just change. Like excuse me, are guys that important to you? Not all guys thinks that you're pretty too by the way. Also, stop trying to fit in with the others when you're not even close to them. Just because he asked you out or maybe you think he 'likes' you doesn't mean you should go you dumbass. You yourself know that he's a playboy with over like I don't know, 40+ girlfriends? You don't even know what others say about you. How they don't want to go to a gathering because you're there etc. Maybe you think that everyone likes you, but as a friend, I really think you should seriously wake up and stop being like what you are now. Fake.

sleep deprived.

Finally its Friday. I mean i really don't want the week to end but its just that school's taking away my sleep. All i get is 5 hours of sleep every single day, excluding the weekends. Or maybe including half of the weekend, Saturday whereby i have to wake up at 9am just because tuition is in the morning. Teachers/parents are always asking us to sleep early. EXCUSE ME HELLO. How do you expect us to sleep early when there's tests, homework, and other stuff like project that we got to do and hand in. I don't get how some of the students are able to get 8 hours of sleep everyday with all the homework piling up. I'm not talking about primary school students of course. They say if you're able to get more than 8 hours of sleep during the weekdays, you're either a god or you just can't be bothered with the work given. To all those people out there thats getting 8 hours of sleep, I CLAP FOR YOU. I think theres something wrong with me whereby i have the tendency of procrastinating my sleep. Every time when i tell myself that i want to sleep early, i'll just end up sleeping at 11pm etc. ( Thats considered late to me by the way ) Maybe its just my body clock thats screwed up, i don't know :-( The holidays should come soon so that i can sleep or maybe hibernate. Yes , that would work. 

busy busy following week

I'm really dreading for next week to come.. There's like so many crappy tests next week :-( Chemistry, double math etc INCLUDING tuition. Who knew that there's even tests in tuition? There's this newcomer today joining us for tuition who looks kind of cute. Well he somewhat look like Gabriel though. His height, tan lines, size ( skinny by the way ) and most of it looks like him. Just that their age and him having a piercing is different i guess. Back to topic, just hope i don't flunk any of them. But i mean seriously, can't the teachers put the different tests in different weeks? Its not like we're so free to study for ALL  the tests HELLO. Excluding the nerds/kiasu people who wants to score well. Sigh nevermind. Oh there's mother tongue listening compre too. School's gonna end at 1235 because of listening compre for all those who doesn't take hcl and for the lower secondary students. To all those that doesn't need to take listening compre, YOU'RE WELCOME. Gonna go to Labrador Park for some geography lesson next thursday. Volunteered with the other 19 students in the class to go there when Ms Tan asked for volunteers. HAHAHA first time ever. Due to inter-class next week, there's not gonna be softball training. NOOOOOOOOOOO. Speaking of inter-class, i really hope our class will win ! Well to be very honest , i think we'll make it through the first round. But who knows? Lets just pray that we'll do well. BYE 

short post

Have not been blogging lately so i'm sorry about that ! So had oral today and surprisingly , it was manageable. Not forgetting the fact that i screw up some stupid parts and oh, the conversation part as well. But the picture was stupid. Like hello, what can i possibly talk about if its about two boys doing graffiti art? Think please . At least i'm done with it, right? Can't believe that the juniors actually won the match yesterday, i mean sorry but really wow. Even the rest of the B girls are shocked. Not understimating them or anything but who knew that they'll actually win ?! Great job C girls :-) Oh, i'm glad to say that i'm over him. That took quite awhile but yay. I'm over my "crush" too. Well not exactly my crush since i'm not sure how i actually felt for him and since his replies are so cold and stupid. Since its Allen's birthday tomorrow , shall stay up to wish him Happy Birthday ignoring the fact that i'll be dead tired in school tomorrow. Thank god Ms Sandra postpone the english test for those who had oral today. That way i'll be able to watch the juniors match tomorrow :-) Thats all for now i guess. G O O D B Y E 

Thank God It's Friday

Its finally the end of the week ! It has only been a week since school  started and i'm already feeling so stressed up, tired etc. Its Friday the 5th of July which also means that its officially the start of Chinese Os oral ! Allen and Gabriel said that they screwed up the whole oral thing today. I'm so screwed in two weeks time holy shit. At least on the bright side, since they tested on CIP today, it wouldn't come out again :-) I HOPE. Was on the bus this morning and saw ACSI B div pitcher. Why is everyone around me so tall.. it feels like i'm the only short one. Its okay, there are advantages for being short so i shouldn't be complaining about my height. So after the long draggy, useless, plain ( and the list goes on) day in school, i met up with Rachel for lunch ☺ Went to Star Vista to have our lunch but on the way there, well lets just say something happened. I just don't get why some bus drivers of  different races thinks that us students are against them. Apparently the bus driver thought that some ACSI students were stereotyping him. OH COME ON. Who would be so childish to do that. Whats worse was that that bus driver went to call the police . ARE YOU KIDDING ME. Just because of some misunderstandings and they had to waste the other passengers on the bus time. L A M E. * fast forward to the part at Star Vista * So when i met up with Rachel, we went to Itacho Sushi for lunch. The food there wasn't too bad afterall especially the sushis ! Of course we started ranting about practically everything be it school, friends , guys etc. Speaking of guys, i guess we both really just want to bitch slap our crush. EXCUSE ME HELLO , STOP GIVING US MIXED FEELINGS AND TELL US WHETHER YOU LIKE US OR NOT. To all guys out there ; not all girls would have the courage to confess to the guy they like, so please please do the job. Sincerely, us girls. I guess the reason why me and Rachel are so alike is probably because we feel that we both aren't good enough for anyone, and our crush does not like us back. Right Rachel? Right. Took really a lot of awkward pictures in the restaurant itself as people was like literally looking at us. Who cares :-) Star Vista was boring  so went to Rachel house after lunch for a short while only since she had tennis lesson in the evening. OH saw Brandon in the mrt too, damn saw too many people today . Its been a long time since everything went well. Great day today especially hanging out with Rachel , thanks babe  ♥ 

what in the world

Going back to school to see your friends is a great thing, but not seeing bitches flirting around with guys / people who think so highly of themselves etc. If you really need to flirt, do it somewhere else. GET A DAMN ROOM. Its so disgusting seeing you flirting with guys. Next, I don't know whats going on between the two of them, one moment they're okay, and then they will be arguing. To be very honest, if you guys don't like each other, just stop hanging out with each other. Why make life so difficult for yourself? LOL. Talked to huiyi today and she agreed that *inserts name* is scary (?). Not sure if thats the correct word to use but nevermind. Its like she's so quiet at times and always keep the comment to herself. You'll never know what she's thinking about sometimes. Better keep a distance i guess. People finally agree with me that those 3 girls that are always together are backstabbers. Ironic thing is, they used to complain about how they hate one another but now they're really close. WHAT IN THE WORLD. In a dilemma of whether should i go and watch the match coach's umpiring. I want to go out but not go all the way to Kallang field at 8am just to watch a match that i'm not even playing. Why am i so lazy..  Oh starting to not like the seating arrangement. Its like i don't have anyone close around me to rant to.. well thats bullcrap. So many things happened recently and i just wanna talk to him. But his replies will most probably be like " i don't know " etc. Its already kind of awkward between us so nevermind. Maybe i just wanna take a break from all this , thats all.

Hi July

Was suppose to blog this yesterday but was too tired because of school and training. Hi July . Damn, time passed so quickly, it feels like it was just the beginning of the year. I thought back to school would be fun, but i thought WRONG. Its only the second day of school but it feels like i've been back to school for a week. Probably because normal lessons resumed right immediately. I'm not used to waking up so early in the morning, one of the reasons why i hate school. Well at least Mr Koh changed the seating arrangement ! Natalie should be placed near me though.. its so hard to talk to her now. And also some people shouldn't even be placed near each other. Not gonna mention names so nevermind. :-) Training resumed yesterday and WHY DO I SUCK IN SOFTBALL NOW. I can't even throw a ball properly . Need to really get use to the different throwing style for baseball and softball since i'm joining both sports. Coach ( even though he's a guy but.. ) is like always having pms towards the B division . LIKE HELLO. At least we still freaking turn up for training ok. Not like the juniors whom competition are coming and yet some do not turn up. Honestly speaking, they're screwed for nationals so good luck to them. Thank god Chinese Os oral are during mid july and not this coming friday. I'm not fully prepared. Maybe not even prepared at all. lol.  MUSCLE ACHE SUCKS TO PLUTO AND BACK. Stupid muscle aches. I can't even climb up and down the stairs properly. This whole semester is going to be a really short one and i just hope that it will at least be better than the first. But for now, i'm not even gonna wish that July would be better than the past 6 months cause that will never happen so just, Hi July.